Tine 27 1333 YS
Smriti, and all of my adventuring friends,
I am sorry to say this, but I need some space from you all for a while. I need to straighten out my feelings of abandonment by Calliope. She had me completely fooled, and I blame myself for being duped. I should have seen it coming. I saw the warning signs and ignored them. I am guessing you all saw them, not being emotionally involved. I can’t blame you for not saying anything negative about her; I probably would not have listened in any case. Don’t feel bad. Please. What she did was terrible. She used me and then cast me out like a soiled rag. I was never good enough for her. She was always hiding me, sneaking around behind my back. This is not something new.
I thought Carnasos’ death was a tragedy. I think it may have been a blessing in disguise, only I ignored the signs. Calli was vile to me back then, and even more so after I had returned. But I wanted things between us to work out, so I stuffed my hurt and anger and fear down so deep that I don’t think even Mormekar could have found it. I should have made a clean break when He called me, and sent me away on this mission. But I was in love. Stupidly in love.