Our group has been considerably weakened over the last two days. This fact doesn’t pain me as much as the nagging feeling that had I handled things differently we’d still be a group of six instead of four. I wish Vuden and Talmud the best in their travels and will pray that the Platinum One will look over them and that they may rejoin us in the future. But I must prepare for the worst and act as though they shall never return.
While the remaining Daggers have certainly grown in strength and reputation, I hardly feel the four of us will be as effective until we recruit new members. But how can that work well? How can we trust any recruit? Just as important, how can we get them to trust us? Especially when the truth of how our last two members left comes to light. Or even more of a worry, what should happen if the truth of my past comes to light? If that happens I won’t be sure there will even be a group left worthy of calling Daggers.
I shall push these worrisome thoughts from my mind for now, not because I want to but because I must. If I am going to rebuild our group while continuing to serve our Captain I need to be at my best. I shall pray that my past stays just that and hopefully we shall find other men of strength and character to join us on our travels.