This was a lovely vacation, I should come back and visit again sometime. They have exotic cuisine and festivals and wildlife and friendly cultists. It was very exciting. Cedric was almost sacrificed, it was silly of him, he should know better than to trust strange women. It wasn’t all great though. There were bugs everywhere, usually they don’t bother me, but these ones were ossiinmu aaskous haaouus haassuu a pain in the rear. I think maybe I should find a substance that repels bugs and apply it liberally if I should return. Speaking of substance, I got me a very nice poison. Sadly the wouousssouou insisted we couldn’t stay in the mansion so I didn’t get the chance to make anymore. They are so noisy, maybe I should cut out their voice chords? Just a little incision in the throat, for an eternity of peace and quiet. I’ll just put them to sleep for little bit then they’ll wake up and we can all laugh about later. Silently. I’ve been frustrated lately. I keep making mistakes. I wish master was here to teach me, she would know how to handle these situations. On top of it all I can feel myself slipping. I can’t hold back much longer, the bloodlust grows stronger each day, that dream creature… I need to talk to it again. It wasn’t very friendly but maybe it can help me. If only I could talk to her. I don’t think I’ll find that man soon enough, don’t even know where to look and even if he’s dead it still may not be enough especially since these people are crazy, they’re going to get me killed before long. I should return home, take my chances with the clan, no matter what they decide it is better than dying out here.

Remember… there can be no witnesses… not a single one… dead… dead… all of them dead… bathe in their blood… slice them like bread… cut them… dice them… peel back their skin… see what’s inside… kill on a whim… pierce through the flesh… shatter the bone… demulcent the smell… of fresh organs within… try it it’s fun… you know it will be… because deep down inside… you’re just like me…